Things have not been so great with Alif. We've been fighting 3 days straight. & Yesterday was the worst. After seeing me wait for him, he started his engine & rode away. I was left wailing at my void deck. Woooohoooo! How kental.
I need time with myself lah, I think. I can't possibly just devote all my time with my boyfriend. I need my friends too. Haiyah. I know boyfriend doesn't agree with this. He thinks that I can't 'behave' myself. Whatever lah. So yesterday was record breaking lah can? I cried for a whole hour, like an idiot, clinging on to my house phone & waiting for him to actually switch on his phone till I fell asleep.
It all started when he called me earlier. He shouted at me, when I just woke up, over the phone just because I fell asleep. Hello? You wanted to take your bike what! Then while waiting, I sleep first lah! Cannot ah? Haiyah. & That was when it all started. I wasted my time, waiting for him. He was at the coffeeshop with Kikyn & Zhafir, eating while I was at his bike, waiting for him. & When he finally showed up, he just started the ignition & off he rode away. Haiyah. He's been doing this occasionally. Macam best kan Alif?
So anyways, I made a harsh decision, I told him that it was over. But I was so full of remorse when I woke up. ): It was heartbreaking lah. I called him & he was asleep.
I don't want to end things with him. I still love him so much. How I just wished that he could be a little nicer & stop being such a dickhead. He's been so cold & as usual, I've been wondering whether he's faltered or not. I am not worried lah okay, I just want to avoid being heartbroken over & over again. Very penat lor. I get ditched almost all the time although I give my best. Wah, I'm like a rejected item lor. -_-"
I hope you're reading this Alif. If you are, I just want you to know how much you mean to me. You proved that at times, you're better than the rest. I am not ready to let this go. I know the love is still strong. I am sorry if I've been pissing you off, off the hook. But then again, it takes two to tango. It's been you who's having the PMS, not me. I wonder why. Baby, I can't ask you to change but I just want you to understand me. At least, let's give & take.
Okay dah! I will be going back to sleep after this. Thank you for all your tags, I appreciate it. Mwah mwah mwah! & Hopper, I don't think I am cool lah. I am sooooo far from it. More of uncool rather than cool. Heh. Then again, thank you for the compliment!
I need time with myself lah, I think. I can't possibly just devote all my time with my boyfriend. I need my friends too. Haiyah. I know boyfriend doesn't agree with this. He thinks that I can't 'behave' myself. Whatever lah. So yesterday was record breaking lah can? I cried for a whole hour, like an idiot, clinging on to my house phone & waiting for him to actually switch on his phone till I fell asleep.
It all started when he called me earlier. He shouted at me, when I just woke up, over the phone just because I fell asleep. Hello? You wanted to take your bike what! Then while waiting, I sleep first lah! Cannot ah? Haiyah. & That was when it all started. I wasted my time, waiting for him. He was at the coffeeshop with Kikyn & Zhafir, eating while I was at his bike, waiting for him. & When he finally showed up, he just started the ignition & off he rode away. Haiyah. He's been doing this occasionally. Macam best kan Alif?
So anyways, I made a harsh decision, I told him that it was over. But I was so full of remorse when I woke up. ): It was heartbreaking lah. I called him & he was asleep.
I don't want to end things with him. I still love him so much. How I just wished that he could be a little nicer & stop being such a dickhead. He's been so cold & as usual, I've been wondering whether he's faltered or not. I am not worried lah okay, I just want to avoid being heartbroken over & over again. Very penat lor. I get ditched almost all the time although I give my best. Wah, I'm like a rejected item lor. -_-"
I hope you're reading this Alif. If you are, I just want you to know how much you mean to me. You proved that at times, you're better than the rest. I am not ready to let this go. I know the love is still strong. I am sorry if I've been pissing you off, off the hook. But then again, it takes two to tango. It's been you who's having the PMS, not me. I wonder why. Baby, I can't ask you to change but I just want you to understand me. At least, let's give & take.
Okay dah! I will be going back to sleep after this. Thank you for all your tags, I appreciate it. Mwah mwah mwah! & Hopper, I don't think I am cool lah. I am sooooo far from it. More of uncool rather than cool. Heh. Then again, thank you for the compliment!
